I don’t listen to music much, but luckily my intuition knows how to get my attention when I need it most. I usually wake up with a song in my head that won’t leave my mind until I listen to it. Just a couple days ago, I woke up with the lyrics “When it Rains” by Eli Young Band in my head. This one helped transform my sadness and powerlessness into justification – which at least rose my energy a little. It reminded me that it’s okay to be angry, and it’s okay to feel down.
I struggle with depression, but sometimes just admitting that, feels liberating. And, in times that I feel spiritless, I am so grateful for the songs that have lifted me up and brought the insights I’ve needed. I am also appreciative of my journals because without them, I might not remember who I am. When I’m depressed, I forget everything about myself; everything I love, everything I’m good at, and everything I want. It’s as if I have temporary amnesia. At this time, it’s so helpful to look back and reflect when I had a spark, when I had passion for life, excitement for living, and clarity on what I wanted to do.
There was a time I wrote down my ideas, how I felt, and why. These writings remind me of myself and fill me back up when I have become deflated. If you get depressed like me, you should write. Write in the good times and the bad, because you can look back and learn so much about yourself. A lot never changes. What time helps us do is clarify our real goals and our dominant desires throughout our life. Then, when the time comes, we have the confidence and conviction to act on them.